December 2011
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I LOVE BEING LEFT ALONE EVERY SINGLE FUCKING NIGHT WITHOUT THE DECENCY OF A TEXT OR ANYTHING I LOVE MY LIFE
September 2011
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July 2011
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missed my period. freaking out.
ugh jesse has so much of his music on my laptop i just want to listen to my mellow music with no beat i actually dont even know what i want to listen to to right now its dumb i need new music sooo bad
so if anyone’s reading this suggest me some music pleeeeease?
jesse might be getting a manly man job which would mean him being away all week but we would be able to talk on the phone AND we...
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will never be able to kick the paranoia
June 2011
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i don’t understand why people follow this blog. it’s where i write like a diary LOL a sneak peak at my life~
well if anyone actually does read this heres an update on my life: me and jesse are back in a+ he realized he cant live without me and he hopped a bus and surprised me at work it was so nice we cuddled all night and i almost cried but it was a really happy cry
well this might be it
it better not be..me and jesse are on a “break” i think i might commit suicide this weekend KIDDDDDING lol but srsly i cried for like 5 hours today my mom kept coming in trying to help and i would just tell her i dont want to talk and cry somemore
i love my mom i’m so glad i can talk to her about things it feels nice telling her boy problems
sometimes i get sad and just cant stop being sad and all i want to do is cry and die and talk to people from my past but i dont do any of those things i just lay here. i wish jesse would just be a little more considerate of me like text me and tell me i’m pretty or cute and maybe say more than awe thanks when i fucking spill my guys to him ijdfgjerhjgherugherugheggerughegrfhuhbrnjbrh
i now know why i’ve been so effing emotional lately. i got my period!!!!! that explains so much like why i’ve been crying 24/7. i need that butt head boyfriend of mine to get on an effing computer i’m going insaneeeeeegshdfhgfkjg
so jesse officially left today i cried at the bus stop like a little girl i dont think he really understood why i was crying hes only moving a 3 dollars bus ride away but idk its just hes going through a bad time and i feel like i care more than he does and i feel so helpless because there’s nothing i can do to help and all i ever do is help him. but w/e he’s finally going to have a...
May 2011
11 posts
i am in love and will never ever question that again
i literally want to die, like for real. me and jesse are in a big fight and i dont know what to do if he breaks up with me i will die i am so pathetic i love him so much i dont know how to deal i just want him to come back i want to kiss him and love him. fighting when we’re not around each other is the worst it’s so much easier to fight irl. i want to die :’(
this is the only place i feel comfortable posting any personal thoughts. weird eh since it’s a public blogging site but this is a side blog that i don’t use and no one i know knows about it i don’t feel safe writing anything down on paper because jesse always finds it ..sometimes i want him to, i act like i don’t but i know i do, not even subconciensly i just know. i feel...
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pajamas and my love is all i need
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